Wow how selfish am I? I would rather feel guilty later for a decision I made than feel uncomfortable now by denying to do something to people around me. In other words, I want to do what I want and break God's heart. Not cool!
John 3:16- For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, so whoever believes in Him, should not perish but have eternal life.
God loves ME so much that He gave His one and only Son to die for ME?! How wonderful! Also it's very condemning and eye opening. I am not worthy of such an opportunity to be rewarded with walking alongside my Creator for the rest of eternity. I sin and make excuses for those sins. I am a broken, ruined, mess of a child but God is willing to forgive, heal, and fix me. What a gracious God we have!
He had His only Son die for me!
WOW!
For ME?!
Little old small town girl.
Yeah that's right, He loves me that much. He's not a selfish God at all.
It's been brought to my attention, by my gracious Father, that I spend time in the Word not as a tool like He has provided for me to use it, but more so as a way to impress people. I use my knowledge not to grow more intimately with Christ, but to make people think I am a scholar when it comes to the Bible. Don't be mistaken, I know quite a bit about the Bible and it's teachings, but I am no Scholar that's for sure. God supplied me with this miraculous Tool to answer questions of my own and others' and to build a stronger, more faithful relationship with Him. I should use it accordingly.
As I am feeling condemned and slightly more broken than I have in a very long time, I lie here counting my blessings that I have such an amazing Father. A God that loves me that much. He is forgiving and powerful and mighty. He will fix me and heal me. But first I have to be willing to open my heart and be fixed. So I open my heart, and endure the pain I must undergo before I can be fixed.
For God so loved the world...
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