I love my Hosea 2 Sisters so much! They are a complete and total inspiration to me. In our meeting last Monday, I realized I am extremely needy. I possess three of the five love languages. This means if I do not receive words of affirmation, a gift, and quality time on a daily basis, I feel unloved.
"You cannot expect someone to love you the way only God can love you!" -Kim Millington
She is so wise and insightful! This is so true on so many levels though. How can I expect Tyler to do all 3 of those things for me EVERY single blasted day? I can't. Plain and simple. If he expected that from me, I'd burst into tears from the level of stress it would cause me. First of all, Tyler is 2 hours away so quality time is not exactly doable at the moment and technically neither is the gift thing. Words of affirmation...yes...but there are only so many things he can say to affirm me and so many ways to say each thing. Only God can love me like that. Only God can provide me with all 5 of the love languages on a daily basis.
I am such a needy child of God. I acknowledge this, and I am currently condemning myself for it. I am so blessed to have Tyler who is so patient with me and loves me for who I am...needy, full of baggage, and straight up Kray-Kray!!!
Tyler once told me read 1st Corinthians 13:4-7 and every time I read the word "love" to replace it with my name because that is how I love him. I cried so hard reading those words. that boy is everything I could ask for as far as a lover on Earth goes, but thankfully God loves me deeper and purer than any lover on Earth could ever love another.
No one can love me like God does.
I struggle with that so much, but I repeat it in my head numerous times a day so that I can calm down and remember Tyler loves me, he just can't love me that much. It's impossible. And reminding myself of that, has begun to make me realize that I am an amazing creation of God's and that's why no man on Earth could ever make me feel loved enough because God loves me more than humanly possible. I'm just that awesome!! ;)
You may be needy but you're also an awesome wonderful beautiful child of God and all of the things you require, you give back tenfold!
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