Dr. Phil

I know I know I've been gone too long!! I'm deeply sorry guys in all seriousness. Dana has been asking me when I'm going to write again and I keep telling her soon. In all honesty, I haven't been in mood. But today even though I feel like crap, I'm in the mood.

So I have been attending Thursday night Bible study pretty regularly, and I've made friends with most of the people there. Sara Beth, Rachal, and Laci have become my close friends over the last few weeks. They are amazing Christian girls lost in this crazy world too just trying to figure out their place. I feel closer to them already than I ever have with some of my friends I've had for years.

By the way I'm going to be jumping around a lot. I've made several self-discoveries in a few different areas the last couple of weeks.

In Bible Study one night, Kim's husband James made the comment that their goal as a couple is to be a "God fearing couple." I want to be a god fearing couple. I want my marriage to look like theirs. I told Kim yesterday her and James aspire me to better myself and are my role models for what a marriage should look like. Tyler and I both have strong relationships with God individually but as a couple we aren't as strong as I would hope after nearly 2 years in a relationship. Thankfully we have several years before marriage is even an option so we are able to work on growing in Christ together now.

Here's my last jump!!

The other day I came home on my lunch break to find my mom watching Dr. Phil for whatever reason. I honestly think the man is crazy. So as I was eating my lunch and not really watching to the bald headed fool on my TV, I overheard him say, " just because you forgive him, that doesn't mean what he's done was right, but as long as you still have anger towards him, he will be controlling your life." I turned to my mom and I said, "That's a great way to look at that." And she admitted she'd never thought of it like that. Now what I am referring to is my relationship with my dad. I'm not saying I'm going to pick up the phone today and tell him I forgive him because there are 20 years of fear built up in me of my dad. My dad is also not a very religious man, so forgiveness to him means he didn't do wrong so I would have to choose my words carefully. But it is definitely something I plan on doing in the near future. Just so I know I am living the way God wants me to. When I think about forgiveness, I always go back to Veggie Tales when they are learning how much you should forgive someone and they tell him 7 times 77 times. I love it! The numbers of eternity!!

Have a blessed day! :)