Well because my lovely mother and sister came home and do not know what inside voices are. Now I am wide awake. So how do I spend my time, you ask...by writing my long overdue blog. I know you've missed me and my cynics. Who doesn't? :)
The guys keeping me going tonight are my handy Big Red and the amazing FlipSides Pretzel Crackers! Yuuuummooo!
Anyways, I'm still working on that book, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years. (SERIOUSLY, it's a must read. DO IT! You will thank me later!!) But in the book a verse was mentioned that has been following me around all day.
When I see your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have put in their places;
What is man, that you keep him in mind? the son of man, that you take him into account?
Psalm 8:3-4
All day long I keep replaying those two verses in my head. Awe struck that I have never seen those words, so powerful, so awesome, so, so, so...for once in my life I don't even have words to describe it. I'm silenced by what is. My mouth is wide open, but nothing comes out because I am silenced by the Grace of God.
Who am I compared the rest of the beauty of this world that I am among that my God created. I am but a mere little spec in this big oh huge universe. God created it all. Sit there for a second let that one little sentence sink in. He created it all. Everything you see was created by the hands of our Lord. I say it again and again...What an awesome Father we have. So mighty and powerful. So detailed and intricate. No person is the same as the next. We are all different. What a creative being that is our God!
Every night before I go to bed I take my rings off. There are five of them. They all look differently and each of their own meaning to me.
The one on the farthest left is my James Avery Scrolled Ichthus Ring. Kristi and Kaylee gave that to me as my graduation from high school gift. Kaylee has the same ring since we are sisters in Christ.
The one above that the James Avery Heart Knot Ring that I received from my mom this past birthday.
The ring that is bent has blue sapphire stones in it, and I got it for my 15th birthday from Todd. It just recently bent, and I have no idea how. :(
The ring below that is a ring I got from my mom when I was 14 for Valentine's Day. The stone is in the shape of a heart. Mom, Dana, and I all have the same ring although I think I am the only one still wearing mine.
The last ring in the family of 5 is Tyler's purity ring. Now at this point you are probably freaking out, but it's not what you think. Tyler gave this ring to me as a promise that he and I would stay pure with each other. It no longer fits him, but the ring means so much to him that he gave it to me to wear. Originally I wore it on a necklace, but it feels better on my finger, and there it shall stay.
Just as listed all of my rings, their meanings to me, and how they came to be in my possession, God can do the same for us. It's remarkable how much God knows. He knows everything. He knows that I am struggling to find myself right now. But I know that with Him, I will find me. In fact I know I am on the right path. Our God is awesome. He simply amazes me day after day. Who am I compared to everything else He has created with His own two hands? I am just one of His trillions of children.
"If I have hope, its that God sat over the dark nothing and wrote you and me, specifically, into the story, and put us in with the sunset and the rainstorm as though to say, Enjoy your place in my story. The beauty of it means you matter, and you can create within it even as I have created you."
Let's be honest for a second...I think Donald Miller just stole Nicholas Spark's spot as my favorite author. He is literary genius. I love the story he tells. It's the story I need to hear right now. A tragic love story is the last thing that my pour soul needs to read for one main reason, Tyler is no longer by my side. And by that I mean, long distance relationship. Sappy, tragic love story is not healthy for someone already having a hard time dealing with a new phase in their own relationship. But Donald Miller's book is brilliant! The things he is writing about are just what I need to be hearing and thinking about as I am going on my soul search. I am taking notes for a book that is not related to school. Ridiculous, I know, but it's helping.
God is great, mighty, and all knowing. He is the amazing creator of all things that are. :)
We are just lucky enough to be in His story.
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